How does it get like this?!

I can't take it any more!


We've been here before but every time it's worse. It's abuse. I know that now.


He's in our spare room, playing tetris music because it drives me mad. He was shouting and I told him that dispite all of this insanity I love him, admire him and think he's amazing. This is all rubbish but he trully is amazing.
He says I suck.


He is a shining light in all he does. He brings hope to people. His love is so warm, so comforting. But then he switches off the sunshine again and leaves me in the dark until I genuinely feel I will die.