The other side?

I feel like I am on the other side of what ever that was.
That I am seeing hope again and that I don;t cry every day. I feel like I want to live again.
From this side, I may have had a nervous break down, the panic attacks, the stress, the depression, the fear, the endless tears.


I have taken up baking so I won't be so annoying! Ha! But it gives me something to do so I'll give N more alone time. And he also loves eating my baking afterwards :)


I am still sucking at work. I barely focus and I have no passion for the job I was made for.
But things could get better. We are learning and we can change.
I want so much to change, to be better. To grow.


And God is on my side when I feel like I have an enemy and not a husband. He is on both of our sides.
I have this stuck on my side of the bed so I will wake up to it every single day:

I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken for he is right beside me.- Psalm 16:8