Where did the hope go...

Today at counselling our therapist said that really love puts the other person first.
N admitted that in that case he didn't know love for me.


I think she has lost hope for us. We are at an impasse. 
We have nothing else to say.
I can only cry.


I couldn't speak, I cried for the entire hour and he refused to look at me. He said he didn't care. In a way it's good because it's what it's like at home. He tells me to shut up when I cry and it gets madder and madder.
It was real. It was honest. It was us.