We had a huge fight by text when we were both at work. Not a good idea in theory and it included my crying silently at my desk hiding behind my partition.
But as much as I wanted to ask N not to do this at work, it was easier by text than at home.
It ended at an impasse, as it always does. Me saying I don't hurt him on purpose & I love him. Him saying I'm a horrible b*tch.
So when we got home, and things were an unbearable mess, we did what we do best. Faked it. I made him dinner. He was happy and we talked about work, curled up together and watched a movie.
But he didn't have to. He didn't have to thank me and he didn't have to spend time with me. We genuinely both love each other and it is all os inexplicable. We are going to our marriage counsellor together tonight. I'm nervous because we both like this bit, where we stop fighting for no reason and love each other and although I need this so much I don;t want to bring anything difficult up.
So I'm going to have a read through my posts and formulate some thoughts.
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